I was kinda ashamed of myself. I didn't wanna take graduation studio photos with my family, I did not even upload my convocation photos on FB like everyone did. Because i thought there is really nothing to be proud of.
Many friends/relatives asked why didn't i find a job (a outside kind of job) till now. (I'm working at my dad's place now). The story is too long to narrate but i'm gonna do it now... maybe time for some self-reflection...
So, after my grad trip to Taiwan, reality sat in... gotta find a job. I was looking for a job I think I'll like. I was really into graphic design and photography, I believed that I'm born to be an arty farty person, and that i'm a visual person, I can't do normal admin work. I didn't care that the pay was low, I sent resumes to company hiring graphic designers/photographers. I think I sent about 10... which is why many people thought I didn't really tried hard enough.
3 companies got back to me. Of cos, I shall not name which. The first one that got back to me was a Japanese Restaurant. I went down for interview and was given a test which was to come out with a creative ad for some student promotion. The interviewer was a really nice lady and she told me I can just go ahead with any ideas. Now looking back at what I gave them, I think I'm a big weirdo.
Obviously, they didn't like it and the nice lady said she could not understand my intentions. But she offered to give me a second chance. (I think they really needed a person or they really liked my portfolio) So I did the 2nd test, which is to create a brochure guide or their takeaway noodles... They like what i did and I was called for 2nd interview which a higher ranked manager would sit in.
So, I waited for 1 hour before they asked me in. They asked me a few questions and I answered as per usual. Then, the higher ranked manager said to me "We really like your work but it seems to me that you are not interested in this job. You look and sound like you are very sian." You know I wasn't surprise at all when she said that. Because many have told me my normal face looks like this:
I started realising it during secondary school, cos my friend drew this exact same face on the bday card to me and arrowed to say that's me.
And my voice............. don't let me get started on it... because i've heard ppl telling me "Why you sound so sian?" x 2893479834729834728 times but I was just talking like the most normal me.
&^&^*&(^&%#@# X 283729834729834723
Back to the interview... that manager finally asked me "SO ARE U INTERESTED FOR THE JOB?'' Flabbergasted, I didn't really know what to say. Because deeeeeeep in my heart there is this devil screaming "Aiya, this is just my first interview, maybe there is better ones in the future!!!", "This woman is gonna eat you up if you work here!!!!".
So I answered: "Maybe i'm not that interested in your company."
Suave.
This is not the first time I did that.
After A'levels, I did my first 3 months at Victoria Junior College. My results wasn't that good, I appealed through CCA. The reason I wanna go there because my ambition then was to be scriptwriter. (Rmb I told you abt my ''arty farty'' dreams.) Somebody told me I have to go to VJC to take Theatre Studies if I wanna be one. (I grew and realised this isn't true at all.) I'm a really chee-na person if you wanna use that word. So, I'm really unhappy in VJC especially when I'm in the arts and I just can't mix with those angmoh pais who don't use a single word of Mandarin. It's not even like the avoid it, they did it all naturally. That is tooooo out of my league.
So one day, I went into the principal's office and told her " Mrs XXX, I would to withdraw from VJC.'' She was another nice lady and she went "Oh no, can i know the reason?'' So i was thinking, maybe I should really tell her the truth.
"Cos, I don't like my classmates. I don't like this school. I'm unhappy when I'm here.''
Suave. Suave
That's me... around 6-7 years back then? Little crazy. Ask me to do that now? Ahahaha....
So of cos I didn't get that job, unless that lady was another crazy one or thinks I'm so talented that she can't lose me.
This post is way to long~ I'll continue on the other 2 interviews in another post.
bye bye!
